I don't know what to do.
My life is a mess right now.
Everything is going badly.
I thought I conquored my fear of the scary spiral stairs, but come to find out - I'm just as scared of them as I was last week!
I try and try to go up them, but I always get scared half-way up and then I'm stuck! And then I try to jump down, but because they CURVE I can't jump straight down and end up jumping into the side of the railings.
And Massah keeps yelling at me for trying to go up them. She thinks I'm going to jump and hurt myself. Which I did last night - I scraped my leg falling into the railing when I tried to jump down one time. But it just makes me mad that I can't do it!
And now she wants to put a baby gate at the bottom so I can't try to go up them. And that makes me angry too, because I want to try! I want to go up them by myself! I don't want to be scared! I don't want to be a frightened little puppy! I want to be a big strong man who can go up and down WHENEVER HE WANTS!
But right now I'm going to go hide under a blanket and cry. And I don't even have Mr. Hog E. Hoggerton to cuddle, because Mean Sister Fig tried to murder him and now Massah won't let me have him unsupervised because his innards are coming out and she doesn't want me to eat them!
My life is falling apart!!!!!